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it's official. [Jun. 22nd, 2007|12:59 pm]
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livingroom. [Mar. 16th, 2007|07:07 pm]
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[Current Location |see photo]
[music |stevie wonder - the definitive collection]

i don't have any old photos of the livingroom on hand, but i'm posting the "almost after" shots now. i wanted tiffany blue for the walls and this was the closest i mangaged to get without having an actual tiffany box on hand at home depot. i should have taken the darn box because it's not an exact match, but i ended up liking it anyway. i had a hard time comitting to the color because everyone i asked (boys) was in opposition to anything that strayed from a neutral tone. thank you domino magazine for convincing me that colored walls was the way to go (and thank you misscupcake for "voting" in favor of the blue). 



[todd] painted the two opposing walls walls blue and left the other walls white.  i've decided that i want a third wall blue and am probably going to go with the window wall and leave the other wall (not pictured because that's where the mess is) white.  i know i need some photos or prints on my walls but i don't have anything framable yet. 

the panoramic view (for todd):

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happiness, more or less. [Feb. 7th, 2007|01:37 pm]
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[Current Location |work]
[mood |excitedexcited]

i am totally giddy with excitement as the bf will be here in SIX HOURS.  i haven't seen him since november which seems like ages ago given all the dramatics having occured in my life since then. 

i was on the bus yesterday en route to gramma's and this lady sat next to me in the aisle seat. i usually pay no heed to other passengers as they're usually annoying and try to take up more than their share of seat, but the lady who sat next to  me rested her hands up on the backside of the seat in front of her. when i caught a glimpse of them i felt my eyes tear up.  her hands were exactly like my gramma's, like EXACTLY.  she was the perfect shade of brown and wore a gold bracelet on her right wrist just like my gramma.  i kept stealing glances, making sure her face never entered my vision because just for a second i imagined my gramma next to me and those few moments were so good. so much so that i had to fight the urge to reach out and touch her.  i sat there, next to the window and like a crazy person was conjuring up "accidental" ways that my hand could graze hers.  i didn't work up the nerve to do it, but if given the chance again i'm totally taking it.  yeah, it sounds incredibly silly but i can't even begin to explain how happy my heart was to see those hands.

the last time i saw todd my gramma was still alive. i'd like to rewind and press pause and just savor the feeling of that weekend.

and the countdown continues....

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good to know. [Feb. 6th, 2007|11:27 am]
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[Current Location |still chained to my desk]

quick note:  i filed my taxes on january 28th and my bank account was credited $302 (my state return) on february 5th.  it hadn't occured to me that state taxes have nothing to do with federal taxes so my state refund was credited to me not them.  suffice to say that this month's IRS payment will be $302 (although every ounce in me is saying, "yay! romantic get away!" -- SHUT UP, me!).  point of this, is that the turn around was WAY fast.  i usually wait a couple of months to file, but since the IRS socks me in the stomach with interest and penatly fees every month i figured it would be best to knock the filing out and get my IRS debt decreased (slightly.  VERY slightly) a little sooner.  anyhow, it was super easy for me since my filing status remains exactly the same as  when i was 17 (translation: still no kids, still not married, still not making more than supermarket check out clerk). 1040EZ. easy? very.

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old. [Feb. 6th, 2007|08:40 am]
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[Current Location |work]
[mood |goodgood]

went to the paul weller show last night and found myself yawning midway through the show.  i wasn't bored, i'm just old. my body needs to be in bed at 10pm on monday nights.  i know this, my body knows this, yet i was at the avalon last night in an attempt to do something fun.  i lose.  in the end all i kept thinking was, "i should not have spent $50 on this."  damage done.

i thought about going to coachella this year for approximately 5 minutes.  i got over it.  shows aren't worth it anymore.  i told this to todd this morning. he agreed and said you have to be in the mood.  i disagree with that as my theory is you have to be young. i have to be young. 

todd is going to be here TOMORROW.  i can't wait. i can complain about everything in person and not just over the phone. he listens and sides with me even if i'm being irrational.  he's also made a life long promise that i never have to cook.  he was sleep talking when he made said promise, but i am holding him to it.  tomorrow i'm making him dinner though, but that's only because i want to bring him straight home from the airport with no stops for food. 

february is short. too short. rent is going to be due again too soon. several friends owe me money and last week i worked up the courage to debt collect.  i called a friend who owes me $302.  she said she can't pay me until she gets her tax return.  same with my mom who owes me $200.  my cousin (owes me $107) said he can pay me when he gets paid which is two fridays from now. i felt like fucking damone in fast times at ridgemont high, you know the part when he's trying to get money together to help stacy pay for an abortion.  the part when everyone tells him they don't have it and he realizes he's fucked.  yeah, that part.  there are some people i haven't worked up the courage to ask.  i mean, why should i have to ask? why do people who borrow money make you ask? was it not embarrassing enough to have to borrow money from someone who doesn't make that much in the first place? do they intentionally forget? also, i resent the fact that i don't have parents i can borrow money from. like, not even gas money.  i mean, they've failed in every other aspect of parenthood, why not shell out some money and buy my love? instead i have a mom who borrows from me and i can't say no.  i can never say no.  i don't have much but if i can help someone i do it.  it's a bad habit inheirited from my gramma.  

 if i was meaner people would remember they owed me money. they would pay me.  but if i was meaner, people wouldn't borrow money from me. 

i need to be meaner, not while todd's here though. he likes me nice.

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temporary. [Feb. 5th, 2007|06:01 pm]
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[Current Location |home]
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |joanna newsom-Y]

in the last week i have made an effort to reconnect with old friends. as much as i hated the politics that came with high school, things were better then.  i was pretty much on the straight and narrow until after high school.  i had made the decision to attend PCC and not SFSU after one of my friends bailed and decided to attended UCSC instead.  he went on to work for united farm workers and recently became a teacher for a charter school co-founded by our high school AP US history teacher. 

i'm a temp.

over the course of the last 11 years i have avoided any and all contact with my former friends, save the high school BFF who, despite our years of growth in opposite directions, has proved that the "forever" in BFF is, indeed, forever.  i emailed her recently and practically begged her to hang out with me again.  she works forensics for LA county sheriff's dept and has a cool cop bagde and everything.

i'm a temp.

anyhow, i have been totally unsatisfied with the direction of my current friendships (with the exception of claire, of course) and figured that some old familiar faces is just what i need.  for the first time since my high school graduation i feel as if i have some direction (and a really pretty boy i can show off), so my reconnection with these people won't be shadowed by the fact the fact that i am temporarily a temp.

tonight is paul weller and in TWO the bf.
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back to where we started from... [Feb. 1st, 2007|10:50 pm]
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[mood |amusedamused]

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

did anyone else watch the "previews for the next the oc?"

what is the logic behind the writing?  i mean, you would think this show would want to go down with some dignity.  it wasn't so long ago that i, along with many, were counting on the oc to be the next beverly hills 90210.  i mean, if california has one thing, it has dramatic young adult soap operas named after it's cities.  i do realize that i may be one of the five people to still watch the show, but i am seeing through my commitment. a few weeks after the oc premiered i sat behind mischa barton and ben mackenzie at a strokes show. i was star struck. no one knew who they were but i grabbed frank's arm and said, "oh my god, it's marissa cooper and ryan adams!"  i was in stalker mode the entire night and kept rehearsing the lines, "hi i'm michelle, i just wanted to tell you that i really enjoy your show." 

i failed but i still sat directly behind them for over an hour. they're totally my friends, right??

the "big one" hits orange county next week.

HAHAHAHA.  at least it still makes me laugh.
"only THREE episodes left!"

on a more tasteful note, how CUTE was tim gunn on tonight's episode of ugly betty???
on a less tasteful note, what the hell was the HOT mayor of SF thinking??  i am sure that gavin newsom would not have trouble bagging a broad (or a boy for that matter), but his friend's/aide's wife??  geeesh.  he's dropped about 20 points on the hot scale. now he's just "good looking".
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my cat? [Feb. 1st, 2007|04:37 pm]
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[mood |pleasedproud]



uh huh, totally like the cutest little thing ever.

except when she's clawing the neighbor's thighs. (sorry dude).

9 weeks and 5 days old.
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kittens and butterflies. [Jan. 28th, 2007|05:27 pm]
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[Current Location |home]
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |willie nelson-rainbow connection]

today: i just filed my taxes.  owing the IRS back taxes totally sucks the fun out of filing.  in fact, unless i miraculousy stumble upon a paper bag filled with 100 dollar bills, i won't be enjoying any sort of return until the year 2009.  that's just another reason to look forward to two years from now (other reasons: should be graduating then which means i should be moving and cashing in on this long distance relationship).  until then, i will soul search for patience and then hang on for dear life.

claire update:  had to clip her kitty nails.  this baby girl is slicing the shit outta me.  i just bought her a mini cat gym though so i am hoping that she'll love it and much as she loves the sofa (and my hands and legs).

bf update: todd will be here in TEN days.  my heart is beating madly at the thought of him and i enjoying, yet another, first hello together. as lovely as it may be to have your counterpart reside in same city, our first hellos are absolutely wonderful.  after 1 1/2 years of this, the boy still makes me nervous and i looooove it.  i had forgotten what butterflies in my stomach felt like until i met him and while they do hibernate during our away time, they are up and at 'em when he's near.   this isn't to say i wouldn't trade the butterflies in for some EVERYDAY cuddling and sexytime but for now, i will enjoy the butter and the flies.

butter.
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no fun in FUNdraising. [Jan. 23rd, 2007|02:31 pm]
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[mood |crappycrappy]

after vowing to not spend more than $20 per week on myself i was approaced by a co-worker with a girl scout cookie form. ugh.  i am a sucker for all abouts, man.  so um, yeah, gimme a box of those! and um, some trefoils too! 
total: $8.00

yesterday at approximately 530pm claire is startled by a knock on the door. the hand appears to be little and not of the jehovah witness nature so i opt not to pretend that no one is home like i usually do (even with the TV on).  i proceed to open cautiously and as i do i remember that i live in a neighborhood where grown people walk around with pictures of kids claiming that they're raising money for an unexpected funeral.  i've given money to people of that sort on numerous occasions, mostly because there is a chance that they might not be taking my $2 and spending it on crack. i never feel right giving them anything, i mean the least they can do is walk around with a big blue box and try to sell me $7 peanut brittle, but i digress.  The knock was actually the neighbor kid asking if i'd like to buy chocolates.  instead of firmly blurting out my usuall, "no sorry," i asked what it was for.  he excitedly told me that his class was raising money for a field trip to san diego.  um, whatever happened to field trips to the LA Zoo??  i couldn't say no after asking, so instead i sign up for a box of see's milk chocolate polka dots.  the other choice was an assorted box, with my luck i'll get lots of chews and no nuts. i HATE chews. gross. 
total: $5.00

just now i get an email from my cousin with this link.  my initial reaction was, "great, more fundraising." i don't mean to be a total asshole, but i'm totally walking the poor line right now. like, seriously. i have qualified for low income rates through the department of water and power, southern california gas co and at&t. they think i'm poor, why doesn't my family? ok, ok. i admit, there are people in worse situations than i. yes. i am probably a little self centered and feel that my subscription to netflix is more important than say, oh i dunno, helping a school get new band uniforms but you see, bobby brown said it best (or at least better than brittney spears),  "it's my perogative."  

this is not to say that new band uniforms aren't important. i was a marching band person (notice i refrained from using the word "geek") and i did my fair share of chocolate/lollipop/raffle ticket hustling in an effort to go to band camp in my senior year (again, this is not a geeky activity. band was fun, really).  anyhow, we never made it to band camp on account of an obscene amount of tardies to morning practice.  where, pray tell, did that money go? i suckered my family into buying and selling 1 gazillion lollipops and raffle tickets over the entire course of my senior year and for what? nothing. 

anyhow my cousin's email was not asking for money. if only it were that simple. she wants me to participate in this cancer walk.  ugh. i hate fundraising. i hate it. hate it. hate it.  in fact, i have told my entire family not to bother asking me to sling chocolates at work for their kids because it's not allowed in the office. of course this is a lie, but geesh!!  everything in me wanted to decline, but she had to go and name her team after my gramma (who had both breast and uterine cancer within the past 10 years). 

anyone want to buy a raffle ticket??
(i'm totally kidding).

idea: how about selling stuff that people need in effort to raise funds.
toilet paper?
cat food?
skim milk?
dish liquid?

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