The M-Files

update.

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 16:21:12 GMT

the boy and i still going strong and strongly going.
plans to move to NY are on the horizon .... i still can't see it, but they're there.
am in the 4th week of my last quarter at CSULA - cap and gown purchased, cute shoes to match.
claire loves LA, she doesn't want to move. i don't live through my cat.... i wish through her.
gossip girl was all new this week ... just something that made me happy.
new roommate is better than the last. the last one.. ugh, now his ugly mug is in my head.
my first paper is due in a few hours.... i haven't started.... lemme...

i think i thought i want to start blogging again.

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 03:08:05 GMT

i'm not sure about sticking to the ol' LJ. it took me several password attempts until i was finally able to log on. i'm still pondering why i even logged on to begin with... i mean, do i miss talking about myself? (yes.) do i miss openly complaining in a locked forum (yes and yes.) am considering possibly moving on to blogger. i have an acct there but have posted nothing .... including no friends there. i miss the annonymous intimacy of live journal friends as well as all the virtual encouragment and support exuded by them ... by YOU. yeah, you.

i also miss domino magazine...
and todd...
and my cat's collar which she lost and i just paid $15 for.

i was going to start blogging again on blogger but that feels so professional...like, look at me, i'm a "blogger." i'm not. i'm a whiner. more of that to come later. updates too....not that anyone cares or anything but please refer to the above noted first reason for me being back here... yes, yes i do.

will.i.am.a.hologram.

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 07:03:24 GMT

will.i.am.a.hologram.
Originally uploaded by ommieohmy

seriously - did he really just pop & lock on cnn? in front of anderson cooper?

hahahaha!!

YEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 04:04:23 GMT

that's the only thing i can utter right now.

fucking YEAAAAAAAH.

bah.

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 03:13:55 GMT

watching fox news makes me want to throw up. it's such bullshit. we've been glued to the tube all day watching these conservative assholes blatantly slam obama and cry that the media is biased. fox news is depressing. i'd hate to see these bastards celebrating on tuesday night. it can't happen... if it does todd and i are leaving the planet.

scary.

a house down the block has a yes on 8 sign up. it makes me sick. their whole campaign makes me want to vomit in my mouth. the little kids holding hands on the signs and the "yes on family" bullshit is disgusting. todd and i were at a red light at a major intersection in east la today when a man approached our window wearing a yes on 8 sign. he attempted to give us a pamphlet and i told todd to tell him to fuck off. todd said, "no thank you" but i really wish he would have said "fuck off." it's bullshit. it's disgusting. it's hate. i posted up my no on 8 sign a few days ago and had to rethink how close to the sidewalk i placed it. i ended up posting it up on the house for fear that some idiot would walk by and rip it down. why are people so dumb? why? why!!

scary.

5 more days of nail biting. now, it's obama infomercial time. yeahuh!

baracking the vote.

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 07:40:31 GMT

todd has got me on politics overload. seriously, i have never watched so many political shows in my life and now, my daily laughs are a result of forwarded emails like THIS ONE.

enter your name and send it to everyone you know...including yourself. i've watched it at least 4 times with my name and with todd's and have laughed every time.

this also makes me laugh:

"Apparently Barack Obama believes that you can't 'make history' by doing your job, or going to school, or caring for your kids. Apparently Barack Obama thinks the only way Americans can make history is by voting, and working, for Barack Obama," McCain spokesman Michael Goldfarb said in a statement to FOXNews.com. "It's the arrogance of a man who believes Americans either support his candidacy or cling bitterly to guns and religion out of fear and xenophobia."

gimme a break.
um, todd and i will be taking the day off.... like every day, i guess.

funny friday.

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 23:42:27 GMT

this made me laugh, like, out loud and everything.

the truth behind the myth.

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 23:51:38 GMT

lazy mexicans.
Originally uploaded by ommieohmy

dude, i wouldn't ask manuel or michelle to help with the lemonade stand.

found kitten.

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 19:31:57 GMT

found kitten.
Originally uploaded by ommieohmy

meet rex. he's my little brother's new kitten. i found him yesterday while on my way home from the bus stop. it was meowing and i looked around and there it was, slowly crawling away from a trash can. makes me sad to think someone would just dump him but there was no litter or momma anywhere to be found. heartless people suck. i walked in my house with kitty in my hands and claire went NUTS. she hissed at the kitty, hissed at me and then growled so i took him over to my aunt's and my brother fell in love with him and named him fluffy. i objected and asked him, as a boy, would he want to be called fluffy. he said no and renamed him rex.

i'm fine with that.

this is not claire.

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 02:40:02 GMT

Originally uploaded by ommieohmy

this morning i went over to my aunt's (next door) and on my way back i spotted claire outside on the side of the house. i thought she chewed her way out of a screen again so i called her over and she ran to the front yard. i caught up to her and she turned around and awwww, it was a cute little claire look-alike! i asked if she was here to play with claire and she meowed. i thought for a second claire made friends. this kitty ran over to me and rolled on the ground - her way of asking for her tummy to be rubbed. of course i obliged but sadly felt her little ribs. i ran inside to get some food and water and put it out on the porch. she scarfed it down. queen claire must have been awoken from her seventeenth million nap of the morning because as i sat down watching kitty eat, i heard growling and hissing from behind the screen door. kitty looked up and walked over until the growling was unbearable. i had to leave but left the food out in hopes that she'd come back. anyhow, just now i took all these photos of her. much to my delight she came back! i attempted to introduce her to claire (see other photos) but claire was not having it and chased her out of the lawn. i started to call her cleo after riff-raff''s girlfriend (heathcliff cartoon) but the hard "c" will piss claire off even more. so i'm calling her maggie after the stephen crane novella "maggie: girl of the streets."

claire is mad at me now. i tried to pick her up after maggie left and she hissed at me and walked away. if she keeps it up i'm going to do the ol' switcheroo and give her the boot.

clairey's got some bling!

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 19:20:26 GMT

IMG_7965
Originally uploaded by ommieohmy

so i had a cat scare the other night, claire didn't come home until 10:45pm. UGH. she's been grounded since. i was talking to todd last night and we've concluded that she was out on a date. i was flipping out and in tears the last half hour, cursing myself because she didn't have a pet id. well, i ordered her an id from purepanache on etsy and i LOVE it! it came yesterday so today i bought the cute collar from target (and snipped the bell). claire hates it but at least now her boyfriends can read her name and call me if she's coming home late.

it's official.

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 20:01:48 GMT

livingroom.

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 02:07:29 GMT

i don't have any old photos of the livingroom on hand, but i'm posting the "almost after" shots now. i wanted tiffany blue for the walls and this was the closest i mangaged to get without having an actual tiffany box on hand at home depot. i should have taken the darn box because it's not an exact match, but i ended up liking it anyway. i had a hard time comitting to the color because everyone i asked (boys) was in opposition to anything that strayed from a neutral tone. thank you domino magazine for convincing me that colored walls was the way to go (and thank you misscupcake for "voting" in favor of the blue).

[todd] painted the two opposing walls walls blue and left the other walls white. i've decided that i want a third wall blue and am probably going to go with the window wall and leave the other wall (not pictured because that's where the mess is) white. i know i need some photos or prints on my walls but i don't have anything framable yet.

the panoramic view (for todd):

happiness, more or less.

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 22:02:50 GMT

i am totally giddy with excitement as the bf will be here in SIX HOURS. i haven't seen him since november which seems like ages ago given all the dramatics having occured in my life since then.

i was on the bus yesterday en route to gramma's and this lady sat next to me in the aisle seat. i usually pay no heed to other passengers as they're usually annoying and try to take up more than their share of seat, but the lady who sat next to me rested her hands up on the backside of the seat in front of her. when i caught a glimpse of them i felt my eyes tear up. her hands were exactly like my gramma's, like EXACTLY. she was the perfect shade of brown and wore a gold bracelet on her right wrist just like my gramma. i kept stealing glances, making sure her face never entered my vision because just for a second i imagined my gramma next to me and those few moments were so good. so much so that i had to fight the urge to reach out and touch her. i sat there, next to the window and like a crazy person was conjuring up "accidental" ways that my hand could graze hers. i didn't work up the nerve to do it, but if given the chance again i'm totally taking it. yeah, it sounds incredibly silly but i can't even begin to explain how happy my heart was to see those hands.

the last time i saw todd my gramma was still alive. i'd like to rewind and press pause and just savor the feeling of that weekend.

and the countdown continues....

good to know.

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 19:35:24 GMT

quick note: i filed my taxes on january 28th and my bank account was credited $302 (my state return) on february 5th. it hadn't occured to me that state taxes have nothing to do with federal taxes so my state refund was credited to me not them. suffice to say that this month's IRS payment will be $302 (although every ounce in me is saying, "yay! romantic get away!" -- SHUT UP, me!). point of this, is that the turn around was WAY fast. i usually wait a couple of months to file, but since the IRS socks me in the stomach with interest and penatly fees every month i figured it would be best to knock the filing out and get my IRS debt decreased (slightly. VERY slightly) a little sooner. anyhow, it was super easy for me since my filing status remains exactly the same as when i was 17 (translation: still no kids, still not married, still not making more than supermarket check out clerk). 1040EZ. easy? very.

old.

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 16:59:22 GMT

went to the paul weller show last night and found myself yawning midway through the show. i wasn't bored, i'm just old. my body needs to be in bed at 10pm on monday nights. i know this, my body knows this, yet i was at the avalon last night in an attempt to do something fun. i lose. in the end all i kept thinking was, "i should not have spent $50 on this."  damage done.

i thought about going to coachella this year for approximately 5 minutes. i got over it. shows aren't worth it anymore.  i told this to todd this morning. he agreed and said you have to be in the mood. i disagree with that as my theory is you have to be young. i have to be young.

todd is going to be here TOMORROW. i can't wait. i can complain about everything in person and not just over the phone. he listens and sides with me even if i'm being irrational. he's also made a life long promise that i never have to cook. he was sleep talking when he made said promise, but i am holding him to it. tomorrow i'm making him dinner though, but that's only because i want to bring him straight home from the airport with no stops for food.

february is short. too short. rent is going to be due again too soon. several friends owe me money and last week i worked up the courage to debt collect.  i called a friend who owes me $302. she said she can't pay me until she gets her tax return. same with my mom who owes me $200. my cousin (owes me $107) said he can pay me when he gets paid which is two fridays from now. i felt like fucking damone in fast times at ridgemont high, you know the part when he's trying to get money together to help stacy pay for an abortion. the part when everyone tells him they don't have it and he realizes he's fucked.  yeah, that part. there are some people i haven't worked up the courage to ask. i mean, why should i have to ask? why do people who borrow money make you ask? was it not embarrassing enough to have to borrow money from someone who doesn't make that much in the first place? do they intentionally forget? also, i resent the fact that i don't have parents i can borrow money from. like, not even gas money. i mean, they've failed in every other aspect of parenthood, why not shell out some money and buy my love? instead i have a mom who borrows from me and i can't say no. i can never say no. i don't have much but if i can help someone i do it. it's a bad habit inheirited from my gramma.

if i was meaner people would remember they owed me money. they would pay me. but if i was meaner, people wouldn't borrow money from me.

i need to be meaner, not while todd's here though. he likes me nice.

temporary.

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 02:39:11 GMT

in the last week i have made an effort to reconnect with old friends. as much as i hated the politics that came with high school, things were better then. i was pretty much on the straight and narrow until after high school. i had made the decision to attend PCC and not SFSU after one of my friends bailed and decided to attended UCSC instead. he went on to work for united farm workers and recently became a teacher for a charter school co-founded by our high school AP US history teacher.

i'm a temp.

over the course of the last 11 years i have avoided any and all contact with my former friends, save the high school BFF who, despite our years of growth in opposite directions, has proved that the "forever" in BFF is, indeed, forever. i emailed her recently and practically begged her to hang out with me again. she works forensics for LA county sheriff's dept and has a cool cop bagde and everything.

i'm a temp.

anyhow, i have been totally unsatisfied with the direction of my current friendships (with the exception of claire, of course) and figured that some old familiar faces is just what i need. for the first time since my high school graduation i feel as if i have some direction (and a really pretty boy i can show off), so my reconnection with these people won't be shadowed by the fact the fact that i am temporarily a temp.

tonight is paul weller and in TWO the bf.

back to where we started from...

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 07:06:23 GMT

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

did anyone else watch the "previews for the next the oc?"

what is the logic behind the writing? i mean, you would think this show would want to go down with some dignity. it wasn't so long ago that i, along with many, were counting on the oc to be the next beverly hills 90210. i mean, if california has one thing, it has dramatic young adult soap operas named after it's cities. i do realize that i may be one of the five people to still watch the show, but i am seeing through my commitment. a few weeks after the oc premiered i sat behind mischa barton and ben mackenzie at a strokes show. i was star struck. no one knew who they were but i grabbed frank's arm and said, "oh my god, it's marissa cooper and ryan adams!" i was in stalker mode the entire night and kept rehearsing the lines, "hi i'm michelle, i just wanted to tell you that i really enjoy your show."

i failed but i still sat directly behind them for over an hour. they're totally my friends, right??

the "big one" hits orange county next week.

HAHAHAHA. at least it still makes me laugh.
"only THREE episodes left!"

on a more tasteful note, how CUTE was tim gunn on tonight's episode of ugly betty???
on a less tasteful note, what the hell was the HOT mayor of SF thinking?? i am sure that gavin newsom would not have trouble bagging a broad (or a boy for that matter), but his friend's/aide's wife?? geeesh. he's dropped about 20 points on the hot scale. now he's just "good looking".

my cat?

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 00:39:34 GMT

uh huh, totally like the cutest little thing ever.

except when she's clawing the neighbor's thighs. (sorry dude).

9 weeks and 5 days old.

kittens and butterflies.

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 01:50:16 GMT

today: i just filed my taxes. owing the IRS back taxes totally sucks the fun out of filing. in fact, unless i miraculousy stumble upon a paper bag filled with 100 dollar bills, i won't be enjoying any sort of return until the year 2009. that's just another reason to look forward to two years from now (other reasons: should be graduating then which means i should be moving and cashing in on this long distance relationship). until then, i will soul search for patience and then hang on for dear life.

claire update: had to clip her kitty nails. this baby girl is slicing the shit outta me. i just bought her a mini cat gym though so i am hoping that she'll love it and much as she loves the sofa (and my hands and legs).

bf update: todd will be here in TEN days. my heart is beating madly at the thought of him and i enjoying, yet another, first hello together. as lovely as it may be to have your counterpart reside in same city, our first hellos are absolutely wonderful. after 1 1/2 years of this, the boy still makes me nervous and i looooove it. i had forgotten what butterflies in my stomach felt like until i met him and while they do hibernate during our away time, they are up and at 'em when he's near. this isn't to say i wouldn't trade the butterflies in for some EVERYDAY cuddling and sexytime but for now, i will enjoy the butter and the flies.

butter.

no fun in FUNdraising.

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 23:16:09 GMT

after vowing to not spend more than $20 per week on myself i was approaced by a co-worker with a girl scout cookie form. ugh. i am a sucker for all abouts, man. so um, yeah, gimme a box of those! and um, some trefoils too!
total: $8.00

yesterday at approximately 530pm claire is startled by a knock on the door. the hand appears to be little and not of the jehovah witness nature so i opt not to pretend that no one is home like i usually do (even with the TV on). i proceed to open cautiously and as i do i remember that i live in a neighborhood where grown people walk around with pictures of kids claiming that they're raising money for an unexpected funeral. i've given money to people of that sort on numerous occasions, mostly because there is a chance that they might not be taking my $2 and spending it on crack. i never feel right giving them anything, i mean the least they can do is walk around with a big blue box and try to sell me $7 peanut brittle, but i digress. The knock was actually the neighbor kid asking if i'd like to buy chocolates. instead of firmly blurting out my usuall, "no sorry," i asked what it was for. he excitedly told me that his class was raising money for a field trip to san diego. um, whatever happened to field trips to the LA Zoo?? i couldn't say no after asking, so instead i sign up for a box of see's milk chocolate polka dots. the other choice was an assorted box, with my luck i'll get lots of chews and no nuts. i HATE chews. gross.
total: $5.00

just now i get an email from my cousin with this link. my initial reaction was, "great, more fundraising." i don't mean to be a total asshole, but i'm totally walking the poor line right now. like, seriously. i have qualified for low income rates through the department of water and power, southern california gas co and at&t. they think i'm poor, why doesn't my family? ok, ok. i admit, there are people in worse situations than i. yes. i am probably a little self centered and feel that my subscription to netflix is more important than say, oh i dunno, helping a school get new band uniforms but you see, bobby brown said it best (or at least better than brittney spears), "it's my perogative."

this is not to say that new band uniforms aren't important. i was a marching band person (notice i refrained from using the word "geek") and i did my fair share of chocolate/lollipop/raffle ticket hustling in an effort to go to band camp in my senior year (again, this is not a geeky activity. band was fun, really). anyhow, we never made it to band camp on account of an obscene amount of tardies to morning practice. where, pray tell, did that money go? i suckered my family into buying and selling 1 gazillion lollipops and raffle tickets over the entire course of my senior year and for what? nothing.

anyhow my cousin's email was not asking for money. if only it were that simple. she wants me to participate in this cancer walk. ugh. i hate fundraising. i hate it. hate it. hate it. in fact, i have told my entire family not to bother asking me to sling chocolates at work for their kids because it's not allowed in the office. of course this is a lie, but geesh!! everything in me wanted to decline, but she had to go and name her team after my gramma (who had both breast and uterine cancer within the past 10 years).

anyone want to buy a raffle ticket??
(i'm totally kidding).

idea: how about selling stuff that people need in effort to raise funds.
toilet paper?
cat food?
skim milk?
dish liquid?

on crying and a cute kitten.

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 16:13:06 GMT

tivo did not record grey's anatomy on thursday like it was supposed to. just one more reason cancelling cable will be ok. (ok, i know i've been cancelling cable for like 2 months already, but i've committed myseld to top chef. it's a really good show). luckily abc archives all the episode online so i was able to watch it in bed while waiting for my todd call. it was the absolute hardest episode for me to watch. since christmas, i think i've been doing alright dealing with the gramma thing. i haven't had crying fits and i've been able to look at pictures without breaking down but jesus, watching that whole scene with george's dad just really hit home and it felt like i lost her all over again. i had this image of her in the hospital stuck in my head and i cried uncontrollably until i calmed myself down enough to call todd. he didn't answer so instead i actually prayed last night. it's my half ditch catholic effort. when i was 4 my grandpa died. i was pretty close to him being that my parents were too busy experimenting with drugs to raise me. anyhow, i don't recall him dying because no one told me. i knew he was in the hospital but i was sent away to my other grandma's because my gramma wanted to spare me the grief at such a young age. when she finally told me she broke it down in elementary catholic terms explaining that my grandpa wasn't coming home because he was up in heaven with the angels and the saints. so she had me pray to him every night because according to her, he could hear me. i prayed every night until i was old enough to question the validity of all things holy. i prayed last night, said a few words to her and hoped to God that she was listening.

todd called me at 1am and of course, i was long gone and lost in Zs. i don't recall the phone ringing, but it did and i guess i answered it and left it in bed with the headset attached. this morning claire woke me up because she was literally trying to climb the walls. next to her i found my headsest chewed in two. she's too cute to be mad at, but i think she needs to get a job and start working at replacing all that she has destroyed or will destroy (including my hands and legs). oh, to be a cat.

flickr blog test.

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 06:26:01 GMT

the cutest litterbox. like, ever.
Originally uploaded by ommichelle.

she likes wrestling with kitty litter.

she always wins.
always.

kittens.

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 19:36:31 GMT

isn't this the cutest cat litterbox ever?

uh huh, that is what claire will be pooping in come this evening.
i'm soooooo excited.

good things.

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 20:56:54 GMT

some man on the elevator thanked me for holding it open for him. i felt bad because because as he was walking in i was hitting the "close door" button, not the "open door" button. i saw him trailing behind me and raced to the elevator, swiped my badge, hit "19" and nothing. there is no way i'd be able to make a quick get away in this building.

anyhow, claire will be coming home on tuesday. she's 8 weeks old now and old enough to get her first set of shots. i felt like a cheapskate, but i called around getting quotes and found that the cheapest vet is actually in my neighborhood. this is good, what with the no car situation and all. i should probably consider buying this stroller. i'm totally kidding. i'm way excited though. i'm making my first trip to petco this wkend with the following on my list:

1. kitty food
2. toys, lots of toys!
3. cat bed
4. cat treats

any other suggestions?? i know a handful of you LJers are kitty lovers, so if you can suggest any favorite toys or treats, then let me know!

first, my grades:

E4606	ENGLISH 103	3	A
E3707	HISTORY 011	3	A
E1407	HEALTH 002	3	A

(totally was NOT expecting an "A" in english).

second, the last shot of todd and i together:

11/13/06-Reagan Nat'l Airport
i imagine we'd make lovely babies, but don't tell him that, it might freak him out.

third, curious cuteness:

Claire - 7 weeks old with her nose covered in kitty food.
my great-gramma's 1970s linoleum floor makes for a great background.

end of goodness.